lauralemon
All of this has happened before, and will happen again....
retraction
You know, I posted something earlier today when I was in another state. I'm still terribly stressed and concerned, but after breakfast, and after I posted, I did my yoga and felt a lot better. As unfair as I feel my life is most of the time, I have to admit that in most respects I've been very lucky. I've been lamenting that I need to cash out the only retirement fund I have when the truth is, I'm lucky to have that account to cash out. At least not yet do I have to beg a roof from anyone. I've been grieving no vacation this year, but so what, when I get my shit together, I'll go then. It's hard for me to see my nieces and nephews surpassing me in housing, jobs, etc. It makes me feel like a failure. But I understand that things can be so much worse and I need to remember that I made this decision. Granted, I felt backed into a corner and genuinely needed the rest, so I've taken it. At least I'm getting interviews and not being completely ignored.
We're still okay. Instead of carping, I finally feel like I can start doing again. My fibro is still in full swing, but I feel a lot better than I was feeling two months ago. This past week, I've done yoga four times and doing a little better each time. There's a program on fitTV called Namaste Yoga that I DVR and have come to really enjoy. These little programs are just right for me. It's unbelievable the amount of tension and pain I release each time I do it. Afterwards, I feel so much better. I believe my supplements are helping a bit, too. Though I was annoyed earlier that I lost the drug study (really the $50 per visit) I was concerned about the type of drug and how it would affect me. That I'm starting to feel a benefit from my own treatment course tells me that it's a good thing I didn't end up doing it.
Job- and money-wise I'm going to get something soon, I can feel it. Not sure if it's one I've already applied to or one of the jobs I've found online today but it will have to show that I'm feeling better when I go in for interviews. Everything else will come from there. I will need to do some maintenance on my credit cards -- and try not to think on the nastiness of yesterday with one person in particular -- but this too will pass. I'm still hopeful that this was all for a good reason and that in the end this course will have been for the best for me, that it will have been worth it.
The kitties have food, treats and litter. I managed to go and get a cute 'do this week. I am lucky to have loaner laptops while mine is in repair. Yesterday and this morning were very hard for me, but I'm working hard to turn that around and not be so morose. I believe that I'll be okay. First, Austin. And then I'll work on Vancouver.
We're still okay. Instead of carping, I finally feel like I can start doing again. My fibro is still in full swing, but I feel a lot better than I was feeling two months ago. This past week, I've done yoga four times and doing a little better each time. There's a program on fitTV called Namaste Yoga that I DVR and have come to really enjoy. These little programs are just right for me. It's unbelievable the amount of tension and pain I release each time I do it. Afterwards, I feel so much better. I believe my supplements are helping a bit, too. Though I was annoyed earlier that I lost the drug study (really the $50 per visit) I was concerned about the type of drug and how it would affect me. That I'm starting to feel a benefit from my own treatment course tells me that it's a good thing I didn't end up doing it.
Job- and money-wise I'm going to get something soon, I can feel it. Not sure if it's one I've already applied to or one of the jobs I've found online today but it will have to show that I'm feeling better when I go in for interviews. Everything else will come from there. I will need to do some maintenance on my credit cards -- and try not to think on the nastiness of yesterday with one person in particular -- but this too will pass. I'm still hopeful that this was all for a good reason and that in the end this course will have been for the best for me, that it will have been worth it.
The kitties have food, treats and litter. I managed to go and get a cute 'do this week. I am lucky to have loaner laptops while mine is in repair. Yesterday and this morning were very hard for me, but I'm working hard to turn that around and not be so morose. I believe that I'll be okay. First, Austin. And then I'll work on Vancouver.
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